The Trojan Horse: How the Democratic Party Traded Chains for Handoutsby Pam Stevens | PamsPulse.com


Most people know the story of the Trojan Horse. The Greeks couldn’t break through the walls of Troy by force, so they changed their strategy. They built a beautiful wooden horse, left it as a gift, and hid their soldiers inside. The Trojans pulled it through their own gates. They celebrated. And while they slept, the enemy that had been standing outside their walls walked right into the center of their city.
Hold that image in your mind as we talk about the Democratic Party and the Black community in America. Because what has happened over the last sixty-plus years is one of the most effective long cons in political history. And it is still running today.

Phase One: The Mask Was Off
The Democratic Party built Jim Crow. Not Republicans. Not some vague abstraction called “the South.” The Democratic Party, as an institution, constructed and enforced a legal architecture of racial oppression that lasted nearly a century after the Civil War. Black Codes. Poll taxes. Literacy tests. Grandfather clauses. Separate everything. All of it legislated, enforced, and defended by Democrats.
Bull Connor was not just a Democrat. He was a Democratic National Committeeman. He wasn’t a rogue actor. He was the machine doing exactly what the machine was built to do. When Freedom Riders were beaten in 1961, Connor coordinated with the Klan to give them time before police responded. That was not negligence. That was policy.
And 20 of the 21 Democrats who voted against the Civil Rights Act did not bolt to the Republican Party. They stayed. Their seats remained in Democratic hands for over two more decades.

Phase Two: The Rebrand
When you cannot hose down children on international television and maintain the fiction that you are governing a free country, the strategy has to change. So LBJ signed the Civil Rights Act and the Voting Rights Act, and from that moment forward, those two signatures became the entire story the party tells about itself. A century of terror gets erased by two bill signings.
Meanwhile the actual Republican record gets buried. Eisenhower sent the 101st Airborne to Little Rock against Democratic resistance. Republican Senator Everett Dirksen wrote the Civil Rights Act of 1968. Nixon introduced the Philadelphia Plan, the blueprint for affirmative action. Reagan signed MLK Day into law. None of that fits the narrative so they simply do not tell it.
And while the Trojan Horse was being rolled through the gates, the song never stopped playing. Republicans are the racists. We just switched sides. Look at what we are giving you. Look at what we are giving you. Look at what we are giving you.
They sang it loud enough and long enough that the gift stopped being questioned. And the people singing it were the same party that had written the Black Codes, organized the Klan, and turned the hoses on. But the song was catchy. And the gifts were real enough to make people stop asking what they cost.

Phase Three: The Trojan Horse Rolls In
The Great Society programs looked like help. Some provided genuine short-term relief. But look at what they actually built over time.
Welfare structures that penalized marriage and incentivized single-parent households. Public housing that concentrated Black families into geographic pockets of poverty, isolated from wealth-building and economic mobility. Programs that measured success by enrollment numbers, not by how many people no longer needed them. Daniel Patrick Moynihan, a Democrat, warned about the destruction of the Black family structure in 1965. He was called a racist for saying it. The programs expanded anyway.


The Black fatherhood crisis did not happen in a vacuum. It happened in direct correlation with policies that made fathers economically punitive to have in the home. And through all of it the party said we are the only ones who care about you.
The gift of bondage was inside the horse. And it got pulled right through the gates.

The Modern Mechanism: Divide, Subdivide, and Conquer
Today the strategy is called identity politics. Take the Black community and fracture it into an ever-multiplying series of sub-groups and sub-identities, each with its own grievance that can never quite be fully met. Because a community constantly sorting itself into smaller and smaller categories never consolidates into unified political or economic power.
When Black Americans vote 90-plus percent for one party, that party has zero incentive to deliver results. Loyalty without leverage is just obedience. And the Democratic Party has counted on that obedience for sixty years.

Look at the Cities
Stop listening to the speeches. Look at the cities.
Chicago, Democratic control since 1931. Some of the most racially segregated neighborhoods in the country, chronic school failure, and gun violence that makes international news. Baltimore, decades of single-party Democratic governance, some of the highest poverty rates and lowest life expectancy of any major American city. Detroit. Philadelphia. St. Louis. Memphis. Newark.
These are not cities that were abandoned by Democrats. These are cities governed exclusively by Democrats for generations. And the outcomes for Black residents tell the story that the speeches never will.
Poverty is a constituency. Dependency is a voter base. A community lifted into genuine economic independence, that owns property, builds businesses, accumulates generational wealth, does not need the government the same way. And a community that does not need the government the same way is free to vote differently. The Democratic Party has never had an incentive to actually solve what they campaign on. Solving it would dissolve the coalition.

What Our Ancestors Actually Built
Before the Great Society. Before the welfare expansion. Before the housing projects. There was Greenwood.
Black Wall Street in Tulsa, Oklahoma was a thriving self-sufficient Black community, banks, hotels, law offices, medical practices, grocery stores, all Black owned, all Black patronized, all Black built. Destroyed in 1921 in one of the worst acts of racial terror in American history. But Greenwood was not alone.
There was Mound Bayou, Mississippi. I have a personal connection to this one because it is my family’s hometown. Mound Bayou was founded in 1887 by Isaiah Montgomery and Ben Green, both formerly enslaved men. They did not wait for the government to build them something. They built it themselves. Mound Bayou became an all-Black self-governing town with its own mayor, its own businesses, its own bank, its own hospital, its own schools, and its own newspaper. Booker T. Washington called it the “Jewel of the Delta.” It stood as living proof that Black Americans, given the freedom to govern themselves and build without interference, could create something extraordinary.
Durham’s Hayti district. Atlanta’s Sweet Auburn. Chicago’s Bronzeville. Indianapolis’s Indiana Avenue. These were not given to us. They were built by us. By people who had survived the unsurvivable and still had enough left in them to create, to invest, to worship, and to thrive.
And they began to crumble not when racism got worse but precisely when government “help” arrived and replaced self-determination with dependency. Ask yourself honestly when that shift happened. And ask yourself who benefited from it.

A Word From Scripture
Proverbs 14:12 says, “There is a way that appears to be right, but in the end it leads to death.” That verse was written thousands of years ago and it describes what has been done to our community with breathtaking precision. Something can look like provision and function as a trap. Something can feel like protection and operate as a cage.
The enemy has never needed to be obvious. Scripture is full of warnings about deception dressed as deliverance, about gifts that cost more than they appear, about voices that sound like they are for you while moving against everything God placed inside of you.

What Our Ancestors Survived
Our ancestors survived their land being stolen. They survived slavery. They survived Reconstruction terror. They survived Jim Crow. They did it by clinging to God, to family, to community, and to each other. The moment those anchors started getting systematically replaced by government programs and political loyalty, something in us began to unravel. That was not an accident.


No party is perfect. No person is perfect.

I want to be clear about that because this is not a call to blindly trust anyone else. But if the majority of our people are claiming to be Christians, then we have a responsibility that goes deeper than political loyalty. We have to look beyond the Trojan Horse. We have to ask the whys and the hows. We have to look honestly at who is actually thriving, who is actually winning, and what conditions made that possible. Because God did not give us the spirit of fear, and He did not give us the spirit of dependence either. He gave us power, and love, and a sound mind. Our ancestors proved what that looks like when it is fully unleashed.
I Am Not Asking You to Take My Word for It
I want to be clear about something. I am not asking you to agree with me. I am not asking you to change your voter registration today. I am not asking you to trust me or any other commentator, conservative, liberal, or otherwise.
I am asking you to do one thing. Just one.
Find thirty minutes. Sit down somewhere quiet, away from the noise of social media and cable news and the voices that have been telling you what to think your whole life. And just think. Think about what you know of your own family history. Think about the neighborhood you grew up in and what it looks like now compared to the stories the elders told. Think about when Black-owned businesses started disappearing. Think about when two-parent households stopped being the norm. Think about what changed, when it changed, and who was in charge when it changed.
You don’t need my research. You don’t need me or any pundit to hand you a conclusion. You just need your own memory, your own eyes, and thirty honest minutes with yourself and God.
Because the truth does not require your permission to be true. It only requires your willingness to look at it.
Our ancestors were brilliant, resilient, creative, and deeply rooted in faith. The men who built Mound Bayou had been enslaved. They had nothing handed to them. And they built a jewel. The question worth sitting with is not whether we are capable of that again.
We absolutely are.
The question is what we have to be willing to let go of first.


A Final Word to the Republican Party
To the Republican Party, the party that actually holds the historical legacy of Black progress in America, I have something to say too. You were complicit. Not in building the Trojan Horse, but in allowing it to be rolled through the gates without a fight. You allowed your own legacy to be stolen, rewritten, and buried while you were busy with other things. The fight was never supposed to be about making America great again. The fight should be about taking back what is yours and ours. America was great. It is still great. Not because it was or is perfect, or handed to anyone but because of the opportunities it represented, opportunities that many black and white ancestors had to bleed, march, litigate, and die just for us to access. But they fought for them because they were worth fighting for. The Republican Party would do well to remember whose shoulders that legacy stands on, and start acting like it.


Pam Stevens is a writer, community advocate, and the voice behind PamsPulse.com. She writes about faith, history, culture, and the things people need to hear but rarely do.

They Said We Couldn’t Feel Pain

I saw a post today that stopped me cold. My oldest daughter shared it, probably not knowing what it was about to stir up in me.

It talked about J. Marion Sims, the man history calls the “father of modern gynecology,” and the three enslaved Black women he used to build that legacy.

Anarcha Westcott. Lucy. Betsey. Lucy and Betsey weren’t even given last names. They endured many experimental surgeries. No anesthesia. No consent. Their enslavers signed off so their bodies could be used, and then history nearly swallowed their names whole.


Before I go any further, let me say this clearly and I mean it from the bottom of my heart. This is not about anger. It is not about pointing fingers at people today for what happened centuries ago. Nobody reading this is responsible for what was done to those women and I would never suggest otherwise.

What this is about is education, and motivation.

I believe that when we know better, we are motivated to do better. To pay attention. To notice how the people around us are being treated. To speak up when something does not sit right. That is the only agenda here.

So if you are still with me, let us talk.
After reading my daughter’s post my own memory came rushing back.


I was in labor with my youngest child. Excruciating, full body labor. I continously asked for pain medication. I asked a few times in that 3 and a half hours of labor.  The nurses kept coming in to see how many centimeters I was dilated, monitoring my progress, watching my body do what it was doing. Every time I asked for something to take the edge off, and everytime the answer was the same. We have to wait for the doctor. The doctor is busy. We can’t authorize that without the doctor. Apparently the doctor was busy for three and a half hours.


They didn’t offer ice chips. They didn’t offer anything. Not one basic comfort measure that is standard practice for every laboring woman. Just three and a half hours of unmanaged, unacknowledged, unrelieved pain.


So they watched. They checked. They documented. But they did not help me.
Three and a half hours later, the doctor finally arrived. By then I was about to deliver. When I asked again, asked for the relief I had been requesting for hours, the answer was almost worse than the wait itself. You’re too far along. You’re getting ready to have this baby. It’s time to push.


So I got nothing. For the entire labor.
I want you to sit with that for a moment, because I need you to understand what was actually happening in that room. It was not incompetence. It was not a scheduling conflict. Those nurses were present enough to monitor me. They were attentive enough to track my dilation every few minutes. They were in and out of that room consistently. They simply were not moved enough by my pain to fight for my relief, or to advocate with another doctor for me.


That is a very old story dressed in modern scrubs.


The belief that Black women experience pain differently, that we are somehow built to endure more, that our suffering is more tolerable, did not die in the 1840s when Sims was operating on Anarcha without anesthesia while a room full of doctors watched. It followed us out of that era and into labor and delivery rooms, emergency rooms, and doctor’s offices across this country. Research has confirmed it. Black women are systematically undertreated for pain compared to white patients presenting the same symptoms, making the same requests, in the same facilities.


We are monitored but not believed. Observed but not relieved.


Now I will tell you this. I do not walk around carrying this memory every day. Time has a way of softening the edges of even the sharpest pain. But when something like my daughter’s post shows up on my feed, it cracks the door back open and I remember exactly what that room felt like. I remember exactly what my body was going through and exactly what I was denied.


Don’t get me wrong, I won in the end. God’s Grace blessed me even in that painful situation with my youngest heartbeat, my daughter Monique came into this world and she is beyond incredible. Absolutely amazing. So yes, I was the winner. But winning the outcome does not erase what it cost to get there. And it does not mean I deserved the neglect that surrounded one of the most vulnerable moments of my life.


I share all of this not in anger, but in awareness. Most people scrolling past a post like the one Christina shared have never heard the names Anarcha Westcott, Lucy, or Betsey. They did not learn them in school. They were not in the textbooks.

That absence is part of the problem, because when we do not know the history, we cannot recognize when its echoes show up in the present.


What happened to those women was not isolated. Enslaved people were regularly rented out by their owners to physicians and medical institutions for exactly this kind of experimentation. Their bodies were considered available. Their pain was considered irrelevant. And the medical field that was built, in part, on that foundation has never fully stopped to reckon with what it cost them.


I am not asking anyone to carry guilt for history they did not make. I am asking us all to carry the truth of it. The truth has a way of changing how we see things, how we advocate for ourselves, and how we show up for the women in our lives when they say they are in pain and no one seems to be listening.


Anarcha. Lucy. Betsey. Remember them. Not just as names on a post. Picture them. Picture a woman lying on a table, surgery after surgery, no anesthesia, no relief, no choice. Picture a room full of male doctors treating her body as a research subject while she endured what no human being should ever be asked to endure.

We live in a time when people march in the streets and raise their voices loudly against cruelty to animals. Not one person in that room advocated for those women.



Now before anyone jumps into the comments to say, but I am white and this happens to me too, I hear you. And I mean that sincerely. The truth is we are all underserved by a system that was not built with us in mind. But I do not want us to lose sight of something important. The women whose bodies helped write the medical books we still use today never had their names put in them. That is the part of this conversation that deserves its own space.


That is all this is. A woman who remembered something. Who wanted to make sure a few more people knew the names Anarcha Westcott, Lucy, and Betsey before they kept scrolling. And who hopes that knowing their story moves somebody to pay a little closer attention to the world around them and the people in it.


Their cries were real. Their pain was real. And every single moment of it was witnessed by the One who sees what man refuses to acknowledge.


“The cries of the unacknowledged do not go unheard in heaven.”
1 Enoch 9:10 (Ethiopian Canon)

The Puppet Master: How They Dismantled the Black Family and Called It Progress

There is a particular kind of evil that smiles while it destroys you. It holds a door open with one hand and builds a wall with the other. It speaks the language of liberation while quietly engineering your dependence. It puts a crown on your head and calls it empowerment while everything that was supposed to stand beside you gets systematically removed.
That is not conspiracy. That is history. And it is time we call it by its name.
The Movement They Could Not Allow
When the civil rights movement started gaining real traction, the people in power knew they could not publicly come against equality without showing exactly who they were. So they did something much more cunning. They let the legislation pass. And then they went to work behind the scenes.
But before we even get to the legislation, we need to talk about what they were really afraid of.
It was not the peaceful marches. It was not the songs and the signs.
They were afraid of the Black Panther Party.
And not because the Panthers were violent. That was the label they slapped on them to justify what came next. They were afraid of the Panthers because the Panthers were building something. Something positive inside Black communities. Something that gave people in those communities a reason to stand up straight and feel proud. They were teaching Black people their own history. Teaching them what they were actually capable of. Free breakfast programs feeding children every single morning before school. Community health clinics. Liberation schools. Armed patrols holding criminals in theae communities and police accountable in real time on their own streets.
The Panthers were not sitting around waiting on the government to come save them. They were doing it themselves.
J. Edgar Hoover, that demonic architect of surveillance and destruction, called the Black Panther Party the greatest threat to the internal security of the United States. Not drug cartels. Not organized crime syndicates. A community organization that was feeding children and teaching Black people to be proud of themselves.
Think about that for a second.
Because a self-sufficient Black community is ungovernable. And an ungovernable people cannot be controlled.
So through COINTELPRO the FBI infiltrated, destabilized, and methodically destroyed every organization that was building Black self-sufficiency. They planted informants. They forged letters to turn leaders against each other. They kicked in doors in the middle of the night. They assassinated Fred Hampton in his bed at 21 years old. They imprisoned, exiled, and silenced every voice that was telling Black people you do not need them.
They declared it terrorism so they could bury the truth of what it actually was.
The Loophole They Built Inside the Legislation
Once they neutralized the visible threat they turned to policy. And this is where it gets quiet and calculated.
The welfare system as it was redesigned had one requirement buried inside it that nobody was talking about loudly enough. A man could not be in the home. If a Black woman needed help feeding her children the father had to go. Just like that. The government would be the provider. The government would be the head of household. The government would step into the role of the man.
This was not accidental. This was architectural. This was by design.
And at the same time they were flooding Black communities with drugs and then criminalizing everything that followed. Mandatory minimums. Three strikes legislation. Sentences that had nothing to do with justice and everything to do with removal. Black men were pulled out of their homes, their communities, their families by the millions and warehoused in a system that made sure when they got out they still could not vote, could not get housing, could not get a decent job.
The puppet master did not need chains this time. He had policy. And policy is so much cleaner.
The Crown They Put On Her Head
And then they handed Black women a crown and called it strength.
Strong Black woman. Independent. Needs no one. Can carry it all. You saw it on shirts. You heard it in songs. You heard it preached from pulpits. And Black women wore it because what other choice was there. The men were gone. The community infrastructure had been gutted. The government check came with conditions attached. So she held it together because somebody had to.
But I need to say something that does not get said nearly enough.
God never designed us to do this alone.
Not Black women. Not any woman. The strength that everybody celebrated was survival dressed up as empowerment. And survival, real survival, the kind where you are holding everything together by yourself with no net underneath you, has a price that nobody ever puts on the invoice.
I know because I paid it.
After a marriage that ended and children who needed me to hold it together, I had no roadmap and no safety net. So I became strong. I became independent. Not because I chose that from a place of empowerment but because survival required it. I built walls. I kept moving. I did what mothers do.
And somewhere in all that doing I lost something I did not even realize was being taken from me.
At 60 years old I can look back and trace the larger story I was living inside without even knowing it. The narrative that told me strength meant needing nothing. The lie that taught me needing someone was weakness. The system that removed the very people who were supposed to be beside us and then handed us a crown and called us queens so we would carry the weight they needed us to carry and call it empowerment.
That was not a celebration. That was manipulation dressed in gold. You remember Tom Sawyer tricking those boys into painting his fence and making them feel like he was doing them a favor? Same spirit. Same playbook. They made Black women feel like strength and independence was a gift being bestowed on us. Meanwhile we were out here painting their fence and calling it freedom.
That is not empowerment. That is a con. And it worked on millions of us.

Black women, this part is for us specifically.
We can trace every thread of what was done to us and be absolutely right about all of it. And we still have to look in the mirror. Because at some point the finger pointing has to turn inward. We cannot keep saying men ain’t nothing while we are doing nothing to inspect what we are bringing to the table or what we are putting out into the world.
Start with how you carry yourself when you walk out that front door. Not because the world deserves your best but because you do. More importantly GOD deserves our best.

Stop coming outside in house shoes and bonnets and clothes that stopped fitting three sizes ago. That is not liberation. That is surrender. Take pride in how you present yourself because how you see yourself shows up before you ever open your mouth.
Take pride in what you can accomplish today. Not what the government is going to do. Not what somebody else owes you. What you can do. What you can build. What you can decide right now.
Stop letting Hollywood and the entertainment industry sexualize and define what a Black woman should look like, sound like, or want out of life. They have been writing that script for us for decades and it has not served us yet.
And take pride in your man again. Speak life over him instead of contempt. Stop feeding the narrative that was designed to divide us. They needed us to turn on each other. We have been doing their work for them long enough.

So What Do We Do Now
You cannot legislate your way out of a mindset. The same system that built the cage cannot be the one to open the door.
What breaks this is truth. Uncomfortable, unapologetic, documented truth told by people who lived inside it and found their way to the other side with their eyes wide open.
What breaks this is rebuilding the internal economy and the internal pride that existed long before integration quietly drained Black institutions of their best talent and their capital. Black Wall Street was not a myth. It was a model. And it was burned to the ground for the exact same reason the Panthers were destroyed. Because a self-sufficient Black community is the one thing the puppet master absolutely cannot survive.
What breaks this is somebody deciding in their own house, with their own children, right now today, that this generational story ends here. Not because the government finally offered the right program. Because they made a different choice.
And what breaks this is black women like telling the truth about what that crown actually cost us. Not to play victim. We are not victims.

GET OUT OF THAT VICTIMHOOD MENTALITY. We are witnesses. So the next woman knows what she is being handed before she puts it on her head.
The puppet master counted on our silence.

Pam Stevens writes at Pam’s Pulse, where faith, truth, and lived experience collide without apology.

We are built better

Some things you carry in your bones before you ever learn them in a book.
Mound Bayou, Mississippi is my family’s hometown. My people owned land there. My grandmother, my grandfather, my mother and her siblings. When my mother passed, we laid her ashes to rest on that land. So when I talk about Mound Bayou, I am not throwing out facts. I am telling you where my roots live. And knowing where you come from has a way of settling something inside you that nothing else can touch.
I think a lot of us are walking around insecure about who we are and our place in this country. I understand it because nobody handed us our history. We had to go digging for it. But when you find it, it will change you.
Because our people were never sitting around feeling sorry for themselves.
In 1887, just 22 years after the end of the Civil War, two formerly enslaved cousins named Isaiah T. Montgomery and Benjamin T. Green purchased 840 acres of Mississippi swampland and decided to build a world. Not beg for one. Build one. They called it Mound Bayou, the Jewel of the Delta. Banks, schools, a hospital, a library, six churches, over 40 Black-owned businesses. Booker T. Washington called it the crown jewel of Black self-determination. President Theodore Roosevelt came to see it for himself.
And Mound Bayou was not alone.
In Eatonville, Florida, 27 Black men incorporated the first all-Black municipality in the United States in 1887 and governed themselves on their own terms. In Boley, Oklahoma, Black settlers built a town so extraordinary it had 4,000 residents, two banks, and two colleges by 1911. In Langston, Oklahoma, a community born from the desire for freedom gave birth to Langston University in 1897, still producing doctors, lawyers, and leaders today.
These people chased the American dream through terrorism, through lynchings, through towns being burned and flooded. And they still got up. They still built. They looked up and said we are Americans and this dream belongs to us too.
That is not a reason for insecurity. That is a reason for unshakeable confidence in who you are.
Mound Bayou is still standing. Eatonville is still standing. Boley is still standing. Langston University is still producing greatness. Nobody could burn it, flood it, or bulldoze it out of existence because it was built on something deeper than land.
So the next time someone tries to make you feel like you are less than, remember where you come from. Your insecurity is a lie that your history already disproved.
We come from builders. Act like it.
This is not Black history. This is American history. And it is time we started living like we know it.
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Discernment: Not Everything That Sounds Like Truth Comes From God

I woke up this morning and this was already on my heart, so I just felt like I needed to sit down and share it.
Last night I was awake still going down rabbit holes. You know the ones, Antarctica, the firmament, the hidden places we’re never allowed to go, like certain areas in the Grand Canyon, the basement in the Vatican, things that make you ask, is any of this true? Some of it pulls you in because it sounds like it could be. Some of it even brings God into it, referencing scripture, talking about the firmament meaning there’s a dome over us, and you find yourself thinking, okay, but where is God in all of this really?

The more I watched, the more I noticed that nothing being said was actually pointing back to God, but I’ll come back to that. That rabbit hole journey deserves its own conversation.
What I woke up thinking about this morning was discernment.

Before I go further, I want to share something about where I anchor my scripture, because it matters to this conversation. I lean heavily on the Ethiopian Canon the oldest documented, canonized Bible in existence. Older than the Western canon. In fact, the Western canon was built from it. I hold onto that scripture that warns us not to add to or take away from the Word, and I believe a lot has been taken from the original scrolls over time.

The Ethiopian Bible is as close as I can get to what was first written. I still read the Western Bible daily, but I also compare the scriptures to what the Ethiopian Scriptures say.


Now. Back to discernment.
There is a lot of content out here that sounds good. It sounds empowering. It sounds like truth. It talks about awakening, purpose, identity, and unlocking something deeper within yourself. And if I’m being honest, some of it will pull you in if you’re not paying attention.


But I started noticing something that didn’t sit right with me. In all of that “truth,” God wasn’t really there. Everything kept pointing back to self. What you can unlock. What you can activate. What you can become.
And that’s when it hit me. Not everything that sounds like truth is actually from God.


Because the enemy is not coming at us in obvious ways. He’s not showing up with a warning sign. He shows up in things that look like growth, things that feel like elevation, things that sound like truth,  just without God at the center of it. If we’re not careful, we can mistake that for something good.


The desire to know more is not wrong. Wanting to understand your history, your purpose, your identity, even digging deeper into Scripture, that’s not the issue. The issue is when knowledge becomes the focus instead of God.


I had to check myself on that.


I found myself wanting to understand everything. Every layer, every meaning, every difference between what’s written here and what’s written there. There’s nothing wrong with studying, but there is something wrong when you get so caught up in gaining knowledge that you lose your ability to discern what is actually from God.
Not all knowledge is meant to lead you closer to Him.


Some knowledge will strengthen your faith, give you clarity, and ground you. But some knowledge will pull you into confusion, inflate your sense of self, and slowly move you away from depending on God. The tricky part is, it doesn’t feel wrong when it’s happening. It actually feels empowering.


That’s the danger.


Because if something makes you feel powerful without needing God, that’s your sign to pause.
There’s a passage in Sirach 3:21–22 that God led me to this morning. Sirach is one of those books that didn’t make it into the Western Bible, and honestly, that alone is worth sitting with. The very verse that tells us we don’t need to chase what’s hidden, was itself hidden from us. I don’t think that’s a coincidence. It says, “Do not seek what is too difficult for you, nor investigate what is beyond your power. Reflect on what has been assigned to you, for you do not need what is hidden.” It reminded me of the Garden of Eden, the fruit and the lie lucifer told Eve.


That checked me completely. Because I am never going to know what’s behind that wall in Antarctica. I’m never going to know what’s in Area 51. I’m never going to know what’s hidden in the parts of the Grand Canyon that are closed off to us, or the Vatican. My curiosity about all of it is through the roof, I won’t even pretend otherwise. But those things are hidden. And I’ve come to believe that if something is meant for me, God will reveal it to me in His time. Until then, I don’t need it.


Then there’s 1 Enoch, also fully canonical in the Ethiopian tradition. It speaks about angels revealing forbidden knowledge to humans,  knowledge that led to corruption rather than righteousness. That always stops me. Just because something is revealed to you doesn’t mean it was meant for you. Some knowledge leads away from God, not toward Him.


Proverbs 3:5–6 keeps me anchored. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to Him, and He will make your paths straight.”

We are not meant to be the source. That’s the whole point.


James 3:13–17 breaks it down plainly. There are two kinds of wisdom. One that is pure, peaceable, and from above. And one that is earthly and self-centered. Both can sound wise. That’s exactly why discernment matters.


When you go back to the beginning, to Genesis, the deception wasn’t about turning away from God completely. It was much more subtle than that. The message was that you could become like God. That you could access something more on your own.
That same pattern is still here. It just sounds different now. It comes dressed up as “unlocking your power,” “activating your higher self,” or “tapping into what’s already inside you.” It sounds good. But it shifts the focus from God to self.


I don’t want anything that pulls me away from God, no matter how good it sounds.
So now I’m learning to slow down and ask better questions. Not just, “Does this sound good?” but, “Is this leading me closer to God, or is it quietly replacing Him? Does this create humility, or pride? Does this bring clarity, or confusion? Does this require dependence on God, or independence from Him?”


Anything that quietly removes God from the center, no matter how empowering it sounds, is not something I want to build my life on.


I’m still learning. I’m still growing, but one thing I know for sure is this:
I would rather walk slowly with God, grounded and aligned, than chase after every piece of knowledge that sounds like truth and end up lost.
Not everything that sounds like truth comes from God.
And knowing the difference… that’s where discernment lives.

The Legacy That Shaped Me

Lately my grandmother has been on my heart.


Not in a grieving way. In a remembering way.


Sometimes I’ll look up from my computer or from the television, and in my mind, I see her standing there smiling. Other times I see us at night, after prayer, laying in the bed talking about life. And then there’s my favorite image. Her at the kitchen table with her Bible open and a glass of milk mixed with Pepsi. Yes, milk and Pepsi. I had forgotten about that until recently. Funny how certain memories wait until you’re ready for them.


As I get older, the questions I have about her are different.


When I was young, I just loved her. I ran to hug her. I felt safe with her. Always comfort. Always warmth.
Now I find myself wanting to ask her about her dreams.


What did you want as a young girl?
Did you imagine marrying and living in Mound Bayou, Mississippi? Did you plan on raising seven children? Did you always know you would go back to school later in life and earn your degree? Or did life unfold in ways you never expected?


We look at the lives of those who came before us and see what they built. We don’t always see what they once imagined.


I also think about her and my mother. They loved each other deeply. That I know. But their closeness looked different than mine did with her. I used to run and hug my grandmother. I ran and hugged my mom too. But I didn’t always see that same outward affection between them.
It wasn’t cold. It wasn’t distant. It was just different.
Every generation carries something different. Some things get softer over time. Some things remain unspoken. And maybe that’s okay.


What I do know is this. I come from strong women. Women of faith. Women who prayed at kitchen tables. Women who endured things they never fully spoke about. Women who kept going.

I also come from strong men.
My father. My uncles. My brother.
They shaped me too.
I watched how they carried themselves. How they provided. How they protected. How they loved their families. And in my young mind, I thought, “That’s what I want.”
It wasn’t that I didn’t have the model. I had it. I saw what a man was supposed to be. I raised my boys to be that kind of man.


If I’m honest, the part I’m still unpacking is why I didn’t always choose that for myself.


That’s not on God. That’s not on the examples I was given. That’s on me. Growth means being honest about that without shame.


But here’s the beautiful part.
Legacy is not just about what we inherit. It’s about what we refine.
The women who prayed before me.
The men who modeled strength before me.


They built a foundation.

I am proud of the women I come from. I am proud of the men who shaped my expectations. I am proud of the faith that anchored them and now anchors me.


Maybe the greatest honor I can give my grandmother is this:
To keep building.
To keep believing.
To keep asking deeper questions.
And to make sure the next generation doesn’t have to wonder who I was or what I dreamed.


Because I’m writing it down. ☺️😉

You’re Angry on Purpose. That’s the Strategy. Stop Being Common

Division is engineered. Discernment is uncommon

They have mastered the art of pushing us to the edges.


All the way to the Right.
All the way to the Left.


Not just disagreement. Not just policy debates. Emotional warfare.
They keep you so angry at your neighbor that you don’t see what’s sitting right in the center.


We act like this is new. It isn’t.
This strategy is ancient.
Divide the masses.
Inflame their emotions.
Make them feel superior.
Make them feel special.
Give them a label to defend.
And they will police each other for you.


At our core, we crave significance.
We want to matter.
We want to feel elevated.
We want to feel like we are on the better side of something.


What better manipulation than this:
Rich is superior to poor.
Pretty is superior to not pretty.
Light-skinned is superior to dark-skinned.
White is superior to Black.
Educated is superior to blue-collar.
Urban is superior to rural.
Conservative is superior to liberal.
Liberal is superior to conservative.

Pick your box.
Wear your label.
Defend it at all costs.
And the moment you defend the label, you stop questioning the system that created it.


Division is not random. It is engineered.


If you can convince people they are morally, socially, racially, or economically superior to someone else, you can keep them distracted forever.


You will fight to protect your group.
You will despise the other group.
You will measure your worth against the other group.


While you are busy trying to prove you are better…
Power protects power. Not red. Not blue. Power.


Do you really believe they despise each other the way they train you to despise each other?


They fundraise in the same rooms.
They attend the same events.
They move in the same circles.
They protect the same institutional interests.


But on camera? Oscar-worthy performances.
They roar.
They posture.
They insult.
They “stand firm.”
And we start unfriending family members and life long friendships.
We start resenting coworkers.
We start viewing other Americans as enemies.


Meanwhile, the center stays untouched.
Files stay sealed.
Deals stay quiet.
Networks stay protected.
Unity at the top.
Division at the bottom.


That formula has survived kingdoms and empires for centuries.
And the only way it keeps working is if we keep reacting.


We are trained to follow whatever is loudest.
The loudest politician.
The loudest entertainer.
The loudest news cycle.
The loudest cultural moment.
And yes, sometimes even the loudest church.


Loud does not mean led by God.
Volume is not the same as authority.
I have walked into buildings with crosses on them and felt my spirit unsettled.
Not because of the music.
Not because of style.
But because something in the atmosphere felt manufactured instead of surrendered.


For a long time I thought something was wrong with me.
Why can’t I just stay put at a church?
Why doesn’t this sit right?
Why does my spirit feel restless?
Now I understand.


God was not calling me to be common.
Common says show up and check the box.
Common says attendance equals holiness.
Common says if it looks spiritual, it must be spiritual.


But relationship with God is not a building.
Obedience to God is not a membership.
Discernment is not rebellion.


God does not need a stage to speak.
He does not need applause to move.
And sometimes the Spirit will pull you out of noise that everyone else is clapping for.


Not because you are superior.
Because you are listening.


As believers, we do not get to opt out of civic responsibility. We vote. We engage. We care.
But we do not vote emotionally.
We do not vote out of rage.
We do not vote because our pride was triggered.
We do not vote because the loudest voice told us who to hate.
Before you ever step into a polling place, you silence the noise.
You step away from the television.
You step away from the algorithms.
You step away from the emotional bait.


You pray like it matters.
Father, silence my ego.
Silence my fear.
Silence the manipulation.
Let YOUR will be done.
Guide my hand.
Override my emotions.
Yes, sometimes it feels like choosing between flawed options.
But the Holy Spirit is not confused.
And if you walk in there fueled by superiority instead of submission, you are already operating inside their strategy.


Stop defending the box.
Stop worshiping the label.
STOP BEING COMMON!


You were not created to be emotionally programmable.
You were not created to be predictable.
You were created to discern.


One day, when the noise finally fades and the smoke clears, the question will not be which side you defended the loudest. It will be whether you had the courage to see through it. Whether you allowed yourself to be herded by outrage or led by discernment. Whether you chose the comfort of belonging to a crowd or the discomfort of standing uncommon.

Choose carefully what you give your anger to. Choose carefully what you give your loyalty to. Because in the end, distraction is loud. Truth is quiet. And only one of them requires you to wake up.

When Evil Wears A Human Face

I woke up this morning praying, and thinking about the Epstein files being released, and I’m going to speak from my heart.
I have prayed for years for darkness to be exposed. Not for spectacle. Not for gossip. For justice. For the children who were harmed and never protected the way they should have been. Seeing names and information come out doesn’t satisfy me. It reminds me that there is real evil in this world, evil that walks this earth wearing human faces, hiding behind power, wealth, and influence.
I am not seeking revenge. That belongs to God alone. Scripture makes that clear. But I will be honest about where I stand. I will not feel satisfied until God’s judgment is met and true accountability happens. Not just headlines. Not just speculation. I am talking about real consequences. Individuals being confronted with truth, arrested if warranted, standing in court, and being held responsible under the law. That is what justice looks like on this earth while God’s ultimate judgment unfolds in His time.
I will also be honest about something else. One reason I supported President Trump is because I believed his willingness to disrupt systems and pull back curtains could help expose what has been hidden. I never saw “Make America Great Again” as a call backward into oppression. I saw it as a desire for strength, respect, and financial security for this country. No leader is perfect, but I respect disruption when it challenges complacency.
Some people see all of this through politics. Some see headlines. I see it through faith. History and scripture both show that systems sometimes crumble so truth can surface. And beneath all of that, beyond anger or debate, what I feel most is grief. Grief for innocence stolen. Grief for families shattered. Grief for a world where children can be exploited. That grief comes from being a mother, a grandmother, and a protector at heart.
I will keep praying.
I will keep standing in conviction.
I will trust God’s judgment above all.
I refuse to live in fear, but I refuse to stay silent in spirit either. God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and sound judgment. That is where I stand this morning.

The Sound of America Is More Than Halftime

America is a stage big enough for everyone.


First things first. I am not a Super Bowl watcher. Never claimed to be. I am a fair weather fan. If the Chicago Bears were playing, I might tune in, check the score, grab a snack, and pretend I understand what just happened on third down. Otherwise? I can count on one hand how many full games I’ve watched in my lifetime, and I’d still have fingers left to hold my drink.


Now let’s get into the real conversation.
Football has grown into one of the biggest cultural symbols of America. People love to jump in with historical technicalities about where this or that originated. That’s fine. Y’all enjoy that research project. My point is about what football represents right now. Today. On the global stage.


Millions of people across the world watch the Super Bowl. That platform isn’t just about touchdowns and nachos. It’s messaging. It’s branding. It’s cultural representation whether we like it or not. That halftime stage becomes a snapshot of what America chooses to present about itself.


And just to be crystal clear before someone twists themselves into a knot, my issue is not with ethnicity. Not now. Not ever. That’s not my lane.


My question is about vision.


If we are showcasing America, why are we not showcasing all of America?
Why are we still operating in genre silos like it’s a middle school cafeteria? One table over here. One table over there. Nobody mixing. Nobody collaborating. Meanwhile the rest of the world is watching and we’re acting like we forgot we have a whole cultural buffet available.


Imagine something bigger.


Country sharing the stage with R&B. Rock blending with Latin. Gospel bringing soul into the room. Pop tying it together. Artists having their individual spotlight, then coming together for something unified that reflects the full spectrum of this country’s sound and identity.


That’s inclusivity. Not slogans. Not hashtags. Not panel discussions. A real visual, audible collaboration on the largest stage available.
Because if we’re going to talk about America representing unity in diversity, the Super Bowl is the place to demonstrate it. Not in theory. In practice.


That’s the America I believe in.
Bold. Creative. Collaborative.


Confident enough to stand together instead of separated into neat little boxes.

Y’all aren’t ready for that discussion!


Anyway… y’all carry on. I’ve got snacks, peace, and zero halftime regret.

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Black History Is Not Seasonal! Not a Month It’s A Foundation.


Black history is American history. It should be told and taught all year long, not separated out as if it is something extra or optional. It should not live in a special month or a special category. It should simply be part of history, because it helped build this nation.


Black History Month has always felt less like celebration and more like containment to me.


It feels like a neat little box where our story can be handled once a year and ignored the rest of the time. Slavery, struggle, speeches. But not much about labor. Not much about innovation. Not much about theft.


You can see it happening in real time. Every February 1st, streaming platforms suddenly unlock what I call their Black vault. Netflix, Hulu, and others roll out rows of Black movies and Black shows and place them into a special category called Black Stories or Black Voices. For twenty eight days, our stories are visible. Then March comes, and the vault closes again.


But here is the real question. Why does it have to be its own category at all. Why are Black stories treated like a specialty aisle instead of part of the main store. Why can’t Black films simply live under drama, comedy, romance, and documentaries like everything else. Why must they be labeled first by race instead of by story.
That is not celebration. That is separation with better lighting.


Before slavery, we were building. For nearly two hundred and fifty years in the United States, we were building for nothing. After slavery, we were still building for pennies while other people built wealth.


We built farms, railroads, ports, roads, cities, and entire industries we were not allowed to own. This country did not rise by accident. It rose on unpaid and underpaid Black hands.
And while we were building, we were also inventing.


But our patents were blocked. Our designs were taken. Our ideas were filed under other people’s names. Our brilliance became someone else’s legacy.


So what we really inherited was not just chains. We inherited erased credit.
Our story did not begin in bondage. It did not pause after civil rights. And it does not fit inside February.


History should not be rationed. Truth should not be scheduled.
We helped build this country before slavery, during slavery, and after slavery. We built it with our bodies, and we built it with our minds.


And God saw all of it.


When human records were erased, altered, or stolen, heaven kept the account.


The Western canon tells us this clearly:
Malachi 3:16 (NIV)
“Then those who feared the Lord talked with each other, and the Lord listened and heard. A scroll of remembrance was written in his presence concerning those who feared the Lord and honored his name.”


God keeps records when humans erase them. Heaven does not lose receipts.


The Ethiopian canon deepens this same truth. In the Book of Enoch, we are taught that the cries of the oppressed rise up and are written in heavenly books, even when earthly records are altered or destroyed. When history edits, heaven archives.


That means stolen credit may live on paper, but truth lives with God.


But I want to be clear about something. Just because these atrocities happened does not mean we are meant to live in a woe is me mindset.


Our ancestors did not survive all of that just so we could sit in it. They rose above it. They fought through it. They kept building, learning, inventing, and pushing forward anyway.


So yes, we tell the truth about what was done. We educate. We expose. But not because we are stuck in pain. We do it because we are proud of where we came from and what we overcame.


This is not about wallowing.
This is about remembering rightly.


Tomorrow in Pam’s Pulse – Day Two, we are going to talk about something just as important.


When did we stop believing in our accomplishments and in all the things we were capable of doing.
How did communities that are predominantly Black American fall into the state of disarray they are in.
When did we allow mental chains to replace physical ones.


That conversation is coming.

America in the Exposure Stage

I love my country. I am proud of my American heritage. But loving America does not mean worshipping America. Patriotism is loyalty to principles, not blind obedience to power. God does not run nations on pride. He runs them on purpose.

Right now, America is in what Scripture would call an exposure season.

Exposure is not destruction. Exposure is revelation. It is when what has been hidden can no longer stay hidden. It strips away illusions. It shakes confidence in systems. It forces people to ask the questions they avoided when life was comfortable.

I have buried people. I have raised people. I have watched governments fail and institutions collapse. I have seen promises break and power abuse itself. And through every season of loss, rebuilding, and disappointment, one thing has never failed me. God.

That is why I do not panic when systems shake. I have lived long enough to know systems are temporary. God is not.

People are scrambling right now to find the one leader who will fix everything. The one who will shake it up and make it right. That hunger makes sense. But it is misplaced. We already have the only One who can truly shake a nation and heal it at the same time.

God.

When people ask why I supported Donald Trump, my answer is not because I believe he is righteous or flawless. It is because I believed the alternative leadership offered was moving further away from the moral foundation I recognize. I was not choosing a savior. I was choosing alignment.

There is a difference.

In both the Western Bible and the Ethiopian Bible, God repeatedly used imperfect leaders to expose nations and redirect history.

From the Western canon, He used Cyrus, a Persian king who did not worship Him, to free His people. He used Nebuchadnezzar, a proud ruler, to humble an empire. He used Pharaoh’s stubbornness to reveal His power. He even used Rome’s brutality to spread the Gospel.

From the Ethiopian canon, we see this same pattern of God ruling above kings. In the Kebra Nagast, the story of Solomon and Makeda, Queen of Sheba, is not just romance or legend. It is theology. It declares that earthly power must bow to divine authority. It teaches that kings rule by permission, not by right. Ethiopia’s royal line is portrayed not as self-made, but as accountable to God’s covenant.

In the Book of Enoch, which remains part of the Ethiopian Bible, rulers and watchers are judged for corrupting truth and leading humanity astray. Power is never neutral. It is either aligned with God or exposed by Him.

That matters for America.

Exposure always feels like chaos before it feels like clarity. When light enters a dark room, people squint before they see. That does not mean the light is wrong. It means their eyes were adjusted to darkness.

America is squinting right now.

Institutions are losing trust. Media credibility is questioned. People no longer know who to believe. And that is not accidental. When confidence in man collapses, God is saying, look up.

This is not about putting any man on a pedestal. It is about recognizing a season. God shakes nations by placing people in positions of power who will disturb comfort and expose rot. Not because those people are holy, but because the moment is necessary.

God loves America. But love does not mean exemption. Love means correction.

Israel struggled because it wanted to be like the nations around it instead of different. God never called His people to blend in. He called them to stand apart.

And that is exactly where America is stuck.

America struggles because it claims God while governing as if we do not need Him. We say His name, but we do not follow His ways. We quote Scripture, but we legislate feelings. That is not condemnation. That is diagnosis.

And this is where people are missing the real battle.

This is not an emotional fight. It is a spiritual one.

Both sides are pulling at our emotions. Fear. Anger. Pride. Outrage. Hurt. Identity. They keep us stirred up because stirred people do not stop and pray. Stirred people do not discern. Stirred people react.

That is why everything feels chaotic. Emotions are being weaponized. And when emotions lead, wisdom sits down.

If you are praying for God to guide you on who to support, you cannot lead with your feelings. This is not about who makes you feel safe, heard, or validated. This is about who lines up closest with God’s truth. You have to take emotion out of it, because emotions change. God does not.

We are standing at a fork in the road. Repentance or judgment. Humility or collapse. History shows both paths.

So no, this is not Democrats versus Republicans. That is too small for what is really happening.

This is about whether a nation will humble itself or harden itself.

Great nations rise. Great nations fall. God remains.

Patriotism means loving a nation enough to tell it the truth.

And the truth is this. No nation is exempt from accountability. No leader is above God. No power lasts forever.

Only God does.

And if this season is forcing people to ask who they really trust, then maybe that is exactly the point.

The Children Nobody Marches For

There is something deeply wrong with a society that claims to care about children and families, but only when it is politically convenient.

I keep hearing the same phrases over and over.
“We care about human beings.”
“We care about families.”
“We care about compassion.”

But I don’t believe it. Not when those same voices go silent about what is happening every day in urban Black communities across this country.

If you truly cared about families and children, you would be just as loud about what is happening in those neighborhoods as you are about illegal immigrants. You would be just as passionate about Black children walking to school safely as you are about people crossing the border. You would be just as outraged about Black families burying their children as you are about the political narratives of the moment.

But you’re not.

In too many cities, little Black children cannot even walk to school without fear. Crime is so rampant that some kids feel they have to join gangs just to survive long enough to make it home. Parents send their children out the door every morning not knowing if they will come back alive. Empty bedrooms, broken families, and funerals have become normal in places where childhood should be protected.

That is not justice.
That is not compassion.
That is not love.

Outrage Is Not a Platform

If you hate the plan, show me a better one.
That’s where I’m at.

If Donald Trump said water is wet, some of y’all would still have a problem with it. You’d twist yourselves into intellectual knots trying to explain how it’s racist, offensive, or proof of moral failure. Not because it is, but because hating Trump has become a full-blown personality.

That’s not discernment. That’s absurdity.

And I’m past confused. I’m irritated.

I truly do not know what Democrats or modern liberals stand for anymore when it comes to running this country or shaping the future of the United States. I don’t hear policies. I don’t hear vision. I don’t hear solutions. I don’t even hear a coherent plan for everyday people.

All I hear is anger.
All I see is hatred.
All I experience is nastiness.

The platform, as far as I can tell, is anti-Trump. Full stop.

Not pro-worker.
Not pro-family.
Not pro-economy.
Not pro-America.

Just opposition for the sake of opposition.

If you actually care about fixing this country, about stabilizing this world, about helping the people who live in it, then you have to bring ideas to the table. Real ones. Hard ones. Thoughtful ones. You cannot lead a nation by rejecting every idea on principle and offering nothing in return.

That’s not leadership. That’s reaction.

And let me be clear about something else.

I am not looking for a savior. I already have one. His name is Jesus Christ.

I am not asking a politician to save my soul. I am asking leaders to do their jobs. To govern. To propose policy. To take responsibility. To be willing to be challenged on ideas instead of hiding behind outrage and insults.

I don’t do political idols. I don’t do political hysteria either.

Blind hatred is just as useless as blind loyalty. One side refuses to acknowledge any idea because of who said it. The other refuses to critique anything because of who said it. Both are unserious. Both keep us stuck.

I’m looking for solutions.
I’m looking for strategy.
I’m looking for outcomes.

Right now, all I see is a lot of people more committed to hating one man than loving this country or caring about the people who live in it.

And that is a problem.

If you hate the plan, show me a better one.
If you hate the messenger, bring a message.
If you want to lead, then act like an adult.

Because anger without vision is just noise.
And noise doesn’t build nations.

That’s today’s pulse.

When Death Becomes a Punchline, We’ve Lost the Plot


Let’s start with the facts.

In a recent Minneapolis incident, a woman was fatally shot by an ICE agent after she interfered with a federal enforcement operation.

She drove into an active law-enforcement situation, refused to comply with commands to stop, and obstructed officers from doing their job.

That is noncompliance.
That is obstruction of justice.
That part is not debatable.
She was wrong.

Her choices put herself, officers, and others in danger, her actions also left 3 children without their mother. Actions have consequences.

Now here’s the part we still have to get right.

Acknowledging that she was wrong does not mean we celebrate her death.
Because death is not a victory.
And God does not rejoice in destruction.

The Ethiopian Scriptures, the oldest preserved Biblical canon, make God’s heart toward life very clear.
God did not create death, and He does not delight in the destruction of the living.”
Wisdom of Solomon 1:13 Ethiopian Canon

God is not in the business of cheering when someone dies.
He is the God of life, mercy, and restoration.
The Ethiopian Scriptures also tell us how to treat others, even when we strongly disagree with their actions.
“Do not do to anyone what you yourself hate.”
Tobit 4:15 Ethiopian Canon

If we would not want our own loved one mocked after a tragedy,
we should not mock someone else’s.

The Western Bible later echoes that same ancient wisdom.
“Do not rejoice when your enemy falls, and do not let your heart be glad when they stumble.”
Proverbs 24:17
Not your enemy.
Not someone you disagree with.
Not someone who made a reckless choice.

You can hold people accountable
without celebrating their death.
You can support law enforcement
without cheering a fatal outcome.
You can stand for the law
without losing your humanity.

When someone on the right is murdered, people on the left mock it, that’s wrong.
When this woman was killed and people on the right mocked it, that is wrong too.
Different politics.
Same lack of compassion.

God does not want His people clapping over coffins.

The Ethiopian Scriptures teach us that grief is sacred, because every life belongs to God, not to public opinion. Mourning honors the seriousness of life and the weight of loss.

The Western Bible echoes that truth.
“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.”
Matthew 5:4

Not blessed are those who mock.
Not blessed are those who celebrate.
Not blessed are those who turn tragedy into a talking point.
Children are grieving.
Families are hurting.
Lives have been permanently changed.
This is not the time for jokes.
This is not the time for applause.
This is the time for restraint, reflection, and compassion.

God calls us to be firm in truth
but gentle in spirit,
strong in principle
but soft toward suffering.
Because if we lose compassion,
we lose our witness.
And no political victory
is worth that.

What We’re Really Celebrating at Christmas A Pam’s Pulse Reflection


Christmas has always mattered to me. The time with family. The traditions passed down. The intentional pause that draws our attention toward Christ. None of that is wrong. None of it needs to be discarded.
What matters is understanding what we are actually celebrating.
The Bible does not give us a specific date for Jesus’ birth, and it never tried to. Scripture tells us the story, the setting, the purpose, and the fulfillment. The absence of a date was intentional, because the focus was never meant to be a calendar day. It was meant to be the arrival of Christ.
Historically, December already held significance in the Roman world. Several festivals took place during that season, including celebrations centered on light, renewal, and the turning of the year. As Christianity spread under Roman influence, existing traditions were often repurposed rather than erased. The birth of Christ came to be associated with December in part because Jesus was understood as the Light coming into the world, and aligning His remembrance with a season already focused on light made the transition easier for new believers. This was not about altering who Jesus was, but about how His coming was introduced within an existing cultural framework.
The story of Jesus’ birth appears in the Gospels of Matthew and Luke in both the Western canon and the Ethiopian canon. The accounts are the same. The difference is not what is told, but how much context is preserved. The Ethiopian Bible, which is older and more expansive, retains surrounding historical and cultural details that the Western Bible mirrors the Ethiopian Bible but presents in a more condensed form.
Not a different Jesus.
Not a different message.
The same story, told more fully in the Ethiopian Bible.
Shepherds were in the fields at night, tending their flocks. Travel was active and ongoing. The environment described does not reflect winter conditions. These details are present in Scripture and preserved more clearly when read through the broader Ethiopian canon. The Western Bible retains the story, but in a more condensed form.
That difference does not weaken Scripture.
It strengthens our understanding of it.
Knowing the season of Jesus’ birth does not change who He is. It does not diminish Christmas. It does not strip meaning from tradition. It simply reminds us that December 25 is a chosen day of remembrance, not a documented birthday.
And that’s okay.
People should continue celebrating Christmas. Family matters. Traditions matter. Shared moments matter. None of that is wrong, and none of it dishonors Christ.
But Jesus was never meant to be honored only once a year.
Christmas gives us a collective moment to pause and remember His coming, but Jesus calls us to recognize Him, follow Him, and celebrate Him throughout the entire year. His life, His teachings, and His presence were never confined to a season.
Understanding that doesn’t take anything away from Christmas.
It puts Christmas in its proper place.
We are not celebrating a date.
We are celebrating the arrival of our Lord and Savior.
And that arrival is worthy of remembrance every single day.

Strong People Burn Out When They Fight Outside Their Assignment

Being Strong Isn’t the Same as Being Called to Everything

There’s a kind of tired that sleep doesn’t fix.

Not physical tired.
Not even emotional tired.

It’s the exhaustion that comes from constantly engaging.
Constantly responding.
Constantly explaining.
Constantly standing in fights that don’t actually move your life forward.

Lately, I’ve been sitting with a quiet realization.
I’m not tired because I lack strength.
I’m tired because I’ve been spending strength where it was never assigned.

And that hits different.

Because strong people are expected to handle everything.
We become the voice of reason.
The truth-teller.
The fixer.
The educator.
The one who can “take it.”

So we jump into arguments.
We correct misinformation.
We absorb people’s projections.
We carry conversations that were never meant to be ours.

And slowly, our spirit starts to dim.

What makes it heavier is this question I keep turning over in my heart:

If I stop engaging, will people think I’m weak
Or scared
Or avoiding truth
Or backing down

But here’s the truth I’m learning.

Silence is not surrender.
Boundaries are not fear.
And disengaging from chaos is not the same as abandoning purpose.

When I look at Scripture, I don’t see God applauding constant engagement.
I see Him honoring focus.

Nehemiah understood this long before we had comment sections and social media timelines.
He had one assignment. Build the wall.

And while he was doing exactly what God called him to do, the noise showed up.
Mockery. Distraction. False urgency. Invitations to argue. Invitations to explain. Invitations to come down and address people who had no intention of helping him build anything.

Nehemiah didn’t insult them.
He didn’t defend himself.
He didn’t debate motives.

He simply said he couldn’t come down because he was doing a great work.

That one sentence carries so much wisdom for today.

Because the moment you step into what God has called you to do, the distractions come dressed as responsibility.
As righteousness.
As “speaking up.”
As “educating.”
As “standing your ground.”

But not every fight is a calling.

The Ethiopian texts echo this same truth quietly but powerfully.
Baruch, who walked closely with Jeremiah, wasn’t assigned to fix the people’s rebellion or convince everyone to change. His responsibility was to preserve the word. To protect what God placed in his hands.

When Baruch carried that responsibility alone, he grew weary.
Not because the assignment was wrong, but because the weight around it was heavy.

And that feels familiar.

We are living in a time where outrage is rewarded.
Reaction is expected.
And disengagement is misunderstood.

People want your energy on demand.
They want you to explain history, politics, race, faith, and morality in a comment box.
They want access to your emotional labor without offering respect, curiosity, or growth in return.

And strong people keep showing up.

Until they burn out.

I’ve started to recognize when I’m outside my assignment.

It shows up as constant irritation.
A heaviness before I even open an app.
The feeling that I’m responding more than creating.
That I’m explaining more than building.
That I’m defending instead of resting.

That’s not weakness.
That’s misalignment.

Purpose energizes.
Distraction drains.

Here’s the part that’s uncomfortable but freeing at the same time.

Some people are not meant to understand you in this season.
Some conversations are not meant to be resolved.
Some arguments are not meant to be won.
And some battles exist solely to pull you away from what you’re actually called to do.

Strong people burn out when they fight outside their assignment.

Not because they aren’t strong enough.
But because strength was never meant to be used everywhere.

I’m learning that my peace is not optional.
My focus is not negotiable.
And my assignment deserves protection.

I don’t owe everyone my voice.
I don’t need to attend every argument I’m invited to.
And I don’t have to prove truth to people who are committed to misunderstanding it.

This isn’t avoidance.
It’s wisdom.

This isn’t silence.
It’s discernment.

This isn’t stepping back from truth.
It’s stepping deeper into purpose.

When I stay in my lane, my strength returns.
When I stop fighting unnecessary battles, my clarity sharpens.
And when I honor my assignment, exhaustion no longer has the final word.

Strong people don’t burn out because they’re weak.
They burn out because they’ve been carrying what was never theirs.

And I’m choosing, intentionally, to stay where I’m assigned.

Should We Stop Giving Federal Dollars To Universities? Part 1

A friend made a comment that stuck with me. He said, “We need to stop giving money to any university”. I could have kept scrolling, but something in me paused. It bothered me because it made me ask a question I had never asked before. How much money is actually being poured into these institutions. And why is the federal government even involved. His comment sent me down a rabbit hole.

So I started digging.

The deeper I went, the more the picture shifted. Everything we think we know about higher education starts to fall apart once you pull the curtain back.

We assume federal dollars help students.
We assume federal dollars support education.
We assume federal dollars pay for classrooms, professors, and learning.

That is not the story.

When the federal government first started funding universities, it had nothing to do with student education. It had everything to do with what the government needed. Not what students needed.

During the early 1900s, the government wanted to strengthen agriculture and industrial development, so money went to land grant colleges. After World War Two, the government wanted to reintegrate millions of soldiers, so the GI Bill opened college doors. Then came the Cold War. Suddenly the government needed scientists, engineers, weapons experts, aerospace innovators, medical researchers, and technology creators. So the federal money exploded. Universities were not chosen because of students. Universities were chosen because they had the ability to build what the government wanted.

And just like that, colleges became research partners, government contractors, and innovation hubs. Federal dollars did not go to lower tuition. They did not go to reduce debt. They did not go to help families. They went into research labs, medical centers, engineering buildings, and private industry partnerships.

The entire structure of federal funding was built for national needs, not student needs.

And here is where my perspective shifted. Based on my research and everything I am learning, I now see exactly what my friend meant. No federal dollars should be going to colleges and universities. Pell Grants made sense because tuition was already so high that students needed help. But the moment the federal government started loaning the money directly to students, everything changed. Colleges raised their prices because they knew the government would cover it. Students signed loans they could not escape. And the federal government created a cycle where students spend years paying back money that should never have been borrowed in the first place. This was not a gift. This was a financial trap. A revolving door of money flowing from the government to the universities and from the students back to the government with interest. But I digress. Let’s get back to education.

Once you understand the true purpose of federal funding, the next question is impossible to ignore. If the federal dollars were never meant for students, then what does that say about how this system truly operates. Because while universities were being built into national research engines, Black people were not even allowed into most Predominantly White Institutions. Our ancestors created Historically Black Colleges and Universities because they had no other choice. The doors were closed everywhere else.

And here is the truth that cannot be softened.
The government built this divide.
The government funded this divide.
And the government still protects this divide.

This is why the comment from my friend was so important. When he said that no federal dollars should be funding education, he was one hundred percent correct. If the federal government had never taken control of higher education funding, they would have never been able to create this split to begin with. The opposition, which is the federal government, would never have been able to pit HBCUs against Predominantly White Institutions. This is part of a much larger pattern. Divide people by ethnicity. Divide them by pigmentation. Divide them by who receives access and who receives leftovers.

And look at how they did it. They shut Black people out of the well funded universities, then told us to go build our own. But even when we built HBCUs with brilliance and grit, the federal government refused to level the playing field. They fed money into the institutions we were excluded from and delivered only a fraction to the schools we created. They undereducated our children in elementary, middle, and high school. They withheld equal classroom resources. They controlled which history was taught and which history was erased. And then people wonder why more students from predominantly Black communities don’t attend these heavily funded white institutions even though the doors are now legally open.

Because the divide was never just financial.
It was cultural.
It was educational.
And it was intentional.

So when I look at the money, the access, the curriculum, and the outcomes, the truth becomes impossible to ignore. The system was not built to be fair. It was built to maintain advantage. And it did exactly that.

Being Black, Conservative, and Unbothered

Why I Will Not Shrink for White Liberals or Black Liberals Who Want to Think for Me

Every time I open my mouth as a Black conservative woman, somebody thinks they need to correct me. And let me be clear about something from the jump. Nine times out of ten, the ones trying to “educate” me, shame me, or drag me back into the mental basement are White liberals and Black liberals who have bought into the same script written for them by the Democratic Party.

And here is what people do not want to talk about.

White liberals love to act like they are the referees of Black thought. They want to decide which Black voice is authentic and which one needs “saving.” They show up with their savior complex, convinced I need them to explain my experience to me. They think my beliefs, my convictions, and my political stance must have been handed to me by a White conservative puppet master. Meanwhile they are the ones being spoon fed by mainstream media, hollywierd, the education system, and the politicians on the left telling them what to think about Black people every single day.

And yes, I have had Black liberals come at me too. But overwhelmingly, the racism I have personally experienced throughout my life came from White liberals. In boardrooms. In leadership roles. In committee meetings. In classrooms. The ones who smiled while saying, “You’re one of the good ones.” The ones who told me, “You are not like the others.” The ones who said, “We do not expect people like you to be able to do that.” The ones who insisted that getting an ID or a driver’s license is too hard for Black people, but not for them or their children.

That is racism. Do not sugarcoat it. Do not spiritualize it. Do not dress it up in “progressive language.” It is the same mindset from the plantation, wrapped in a softer tone and marketed as compassion.

Today they are not whipping our backs. They are whipping our minds.

And here is where I need you to think.

During slavery, White liberals controlled Black people through physical force. Today the Democratic Party tries to control us through dependency. They are not selling our children to different plantations anymore, but they are still destroying our families by encouraging a lifestyle that weakens our structure from the inside out. Many having a bunch of babies by many different men. This destroys the Black family structure. They are still lowering the bar, still pushing a curriculum in predominantly Black communities that keeps our children academically behind. They are still normalizing behavior they would never tolerate in their own neighborhoods or from their own children.

They keep pushing this lie that all Black women should care about is being sexy. They act like spirituality is outdated, that being the woman of the house is old fashioned, that marriage is oppression, and motherhood is settling. They want Black women loud, exposed, sexualized, and disconnected from everything that once made us powerful. Because a grounded Black woman is harder to control than a distracted one. A spiritually anchored Black woman will not bow to anyone’s narrative. A Black woman who knows her worth in God cannot be manipulated. They do not want that. They want the version of us they can manage. But a woman who honors her home, her purpose, and her God is unstoppable.

There is no difference in the mindset. Only the method.

So, ask yourself why they work so hard to keep the bar low for us. Why do they celebrate struggle for us but excellence for themselves. Why do they fight so aggressively to maintain the idea that we are incapable unless they step in.

And while we are asking the hard questions, let us ask this one too.

Why were we the only enslaved people in world history who were forbidden to keep our original culture?

Every other enslaved group throughout history kept their identity. Their language. Their names. Their customs. Their spiritual heritage. Their food. Their family lineage.

We are the only people whose culture was systematically erased. That should tell you something. That should make a light come on in your spirit.

Why was it so important to stop us from knowing who we were before slavery?

What were they afraid of?

Because here is the truth that the Democratic Party does not want you to uncover.

We were powerful before the ships. We were brilliant before the chains. We were builders, thinkers, warriors, inventors, scholars, farmers, navigators, mathematicians, spiritual leaders, and architects before anyone ever laid eyes on us. That was who we were in Alkebulan, the original name for the land today called Africa, the cradle of civilization.

And that greatness was not only across the ocean. Many of our ancestors were already here, long before colonization and long before slavery began. That is part of the truth they do not want you to find. Because once you know that not all Black Americans came here chained in the bottom of ships, and that some were already on this land with skills, culture, and civilization, the whole story changes, and you start to wonder, what else did they lie about.

The Democratic Party cannot survive if Black people wake up to who we really are. They need the victim narrative. They need the dependency. They need the power. They need the bar low, so we never look up. They need us stuck on the hamster wheel they built. Because if we ever rise to our original identity, we would leave their plantation of thought overnight, and slavery would truly be over.

And here is what Black people MUST take accountability for.

We got comfortable. We accepted the handouts. We accepted the lowered expectations. We accepted their version of who we are. We let them dictate our worth, our struggle, our future, and our place in this country.

And we forgot that our greatness existed before slavery, before politics, before the Democratic Party existed, before America even became a nation.

So let me say this clearly.

Stop letting people who do not know your history tell you how to think.
Stop letting the same people who rewrote your history tell you how to think.
Stop letting people who do not want the truth dictate what truth is.
Stop letting people who fear your awakening convince you to avoid researching the real history.

Because once you see the truth, you cannot unsee it.
Once you know the fullness of our history, you cannot stay in the box they built for you.
Once you understand the power in your lineage, you cannot remain dependent on people who benefit from your dependency.

Once you know your true identity, you stop shrinking to fit the expectations of people who do not even know their own identity. You stop letting politics define your worth. You stop lowering yourself to meet the limits someone else placed on you. You stop apologizing for thinking freely. You stop bowing to narratives built to keep you dependent. You stop being afraid of rejection from people who were never rooting for you anyway.

And let me make this clear for everyone reading.

For ALL my brothers and sisters out there regardless of race, Black, White, Hispanic, Asian, Native, and everyone in between. You are not who the Democratic Party says you are. You are not the stereotype they push. You are not the limitations they place on you. You are not the narrative they need you to play out so they can continue to feel superior, powerful, and morally elevated at your expense.

You have a God given identity. You have a God given mind. You have a God given purpose.

And if you do not take the time to research your true history, someone else will hand you a counterfeit version and expect you to live by it.

I am a Christian Black Conservative woman and I am unbothered.
Not because everybody agrees with me.
Not because I expect them to.
But because I refuse to be mentally enslaved by a party that needs me to stay dependent, resentful, uninformed, and small.

I said what I said.
And I will keep saying it until we stop living under a story that was never ours to begin with.

Western Bible: King Josiah, 2 Kings Chapters 22 and 23
The people had forgotten who they were. They were living under a story that was not theirs anymore. Their identity had been rewritten. Their faith was mixed with lies. Their history had been hidden. Their truth was buried. Then Josiah found the Book of the Law and said, we will no longer live by someone else’s version of us. He tore down false altars. He restored truth. He restored identity. He restored the foundation that had been lost. He did not shrink back. He rose up.

Ethiopian Canon: Book of Jubilees, Chapters 10 through 15
God reminds the descendants of Abraham who they are, where they came from, and what covenant runs through their bloodline. God brings them back to their roots. He restores what was forgotten. He reclaims what they did not even realize had been lost. That message speaks today. God is calling us to rediscover the truth beneath the lies.

I refuse to be small.
And I refuse to let anyone else shrink me.
Not White liberals.
Not Black liberals.
Not anyone who thinks they get to think for me.

We Did Not Begin in Chains

A Wake Up Call to Remember Who We Are

I keep seeing our community defend a version of ourselves that is so far beneath who we actually are. A version the Democratic Party keeps pushing. A version the Democratic Party needs us to believe. A version that shrinks us, limits us, and keeps us mentally stuck at the bottom.

And too many of us have accepted it without questioning a thing.

Let me tell the truth clearly. We did not begin in chains. We did not begin on plantations. We did not begin at the bottom. Our story did not start in pain.

Our story began in Alkebulan, the ancient name for Africa.
A name that means Mother of Humanity.
A name connected to wealth, brilliance, and spiritual depth long before colonizers renamed everything.

We come from builders, rulers, mathematicians, traders, warriors, and scholars.
We come from nations that shaped global trade and influenced entire civilizations.
We come from people who mapped stars while others struggled to understand seasons.

Western Bible

The lands of Cush and Ethiopia, Sheba and Ophir, are mentioned with honor. These were wealthy, respected nations. Not poor. Not weak. Not broken.

Ethiopian Canon

Books like Jubilees and Enoch describe the descendants of Cush and Sheba as builders, leaders, and keepers of wisdom. They were foundational people, not forgotten ones.

So do not let the Democratic Party tell you we began in chains.
Do not let the Democratic Party tell you our history starts in cotton fields.
Do not let the Democratic Party convince you that slavery is the full story of who we are.

And now let me talk to us. Because this part is ours to own.

We also have to be honest about how comfortable we became.
We got comfortable with the handouts.
We got comfortable with the “we will take care of you” promises.
We got comfortable with lowered expectations.
We got comfortable defending survival instead of demanding elevation.

That comfort cost us our identity.
That comfort cost us our confidence.
That comfort cost us our future.

We let the Democratic Party strip us of our greatness because settling felt easier than rising. We let their narrative become our identity and forgot that God already placed royalty in our DNA.

Here is the truth that hurts and heals at the same time.

We are not a defeated people.
We are not a delayed people.

We are a people who forgot what was already inside of us.

We built Black Wall Street.
We built inventions that shaped American industry.
We built communities that thrived even under oppression.
We built this country.
We built legacies.
We built families with strength and dignity.

We forgot because the Democratic Party needed us to forget.
But forgetting is not the same as losing.
And remembering is the beginning of rising.

Western Bible

John chapter 8 says the truth will set us free.
Truth frees the mind before it frees anything else.

Ethiopian Canon

Jubilees chapter 1 verse 25 says God will send His angels before us to keep us in all our ways and bring us into the land of truth and righteousness.
Truth and righteousness are identity.
Truth and righteousness anchor us back to who we were created to be.

Once you see the truth, you cannot unsee it.
Once you remember our greatness, you cannot pretend we were meant for the bottom.
Once you understand the power God put in us, you cannot defend chains that are not even locked.

Because of our greatness
Because of our ancestors who built and fought before us
Because of the royalty that runs through our blood
We have a responsibility to rise.

We owe our children elevation.
We owe our grandchildren legacy.
We owe ourselves a future that honors all we were before the Democratic Party rewrote us.

We were never meant to live small.
We were never meant to survive at the bottom.
We were meant to rise.